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Mary: An Awakening of Terror by Nat Cassidy

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gerrakay's review against another edition

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I cannot stand to listen to this any longer. I have not enjoyed this book. The brief glimpses of what could become an interesting plot are completely eclipsed by how unbearable the main character—and the voice with which she is written—is. Mary's narration could be reduced to be, hell, at least a third less dense and it could approach being bearable, but then I'd still have to slog through the Feminism 101 postulations on womanhood. I appreciate the effort in fore-fronting women's issues but I'd appreciate adequate editing more.

Those glimpses of plot we do get imply a very dull one. I read other reviews, including spoilers, and I was correct in assuming I guessed the story line from the start (which frankly I think was intentional since it is so overt, but that would suggest that the journey is the point, and the journey drags because it's so fucking long and the main character sucks so bad that it's just an exercise in misery).

Hate to be a hater but I hate it.

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jamiee_f's review against another edition

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dark funny mysterious tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

This book absolutely SLAPPED. I highly recommend it, even though it's a book about a perimenopausal woman written by a man. It is so deftly written about the patriarchy and a woman confronting the
in this case extremely literal
cult of patriarchy and I am obsessed with
how Mary ends up with an army of dead ghost ladies at her beck and call in New York. I adore a deranged female protagonist, even if it takes the whole book to get there.


My pitch for this book is: Mary is having a shitty time. She's having hot flashes, nightmares, fainting spells, and whenever she looks at a woman, she envisions their flesh melting off. The doctor writes it off as perimenopause, but then Mary also gets fired, finds out her rent is doubling, and her bitchy aunt is asking her to come care for her while she dies from emphysema. With no further prospects, Mary packs up her collection of ceramic 'loved ones' and returns to her childhood home, where her aunt raised her after her parents perished in a fire.

Meek Mary things thinks are going to suck a regular amount when she gets to her aunt's house, but then she goes to take a shower and the ghost of a dead and bloodied woman is in the shower. She freaks out and hits her head, and our story really begins.

Mary goes to the hospital and tells the doctor EVERYTHING but is brushed off as a hormonal woman once again. She breaks down, and a kindly nurse comforts her and offers her a part time job working at the hospital. However, the "hospital" Mary is in? It's actually a converted mansion that once belonged to a notorious serial killer from the area, and Mary's been dreaming about it for months. Spooky ooky!

Mary starts to have flashes of a darker voice inside her, and begins losing time. She starts to reconsider things in her life, her childhood bullies, her relationship with her aunt. She befriends a peppy teenager who is obsessed with true crime, and confides in her that she thinks she might be possessed by the ghost of one of the serial killer's victims. Her new teenage sidekick leans in to this, and helps Mary research. While this is happening...a few people turn up dead or missing! Mary starts to think she might not be the reincarnation of one of the victims, but perhaps of the serial killer himself. She explores this angle and finds she was born the day the serial killer was killed by police 50 years ago.

Once she puts this together, she falls into an undercover religious cult that is obsessed with said killer and makes sacrifices to him annually. Mary is able to 'talk' to the killer inside her, who encourages her to torture and kill the sacrifices. However, the men in town think it's absurd the killer would be reincarnated into a woman, and put her through a series of challenges to try to 'prove' it's really him. This is met with various levels of success, but ultimately the powerful town doctor/mayor/cult leader takes Mary to the desert to kill her.

While Mary is melting away in the desert, she connects with the spirits of the dead women she has been seeing. She encourages them to free themselves by removing the bloody cloth covering their faces, and by acknowledging the ghosts, she gives them power. The bathtub ghost is able to free Mary, and they trek back into town to set things straight.

Mary ends up confronting the killer within her, eviscerating him and exorcising him from her, while building up the power of her dead woman ghost army. They wreak havoc on the town leaders, and it is a bloodbath. Mary's teenage sidekick, it turns out, has been planning to murder Mary this whole time! The two struggle and ultimately have a bloody battle. In the end, Mary gets away, sneaking away before the cops are called, having self actualized and literally cut down the patriarchy. 

The book ends with neighboring townspeople showing up for an easter egg hunt, and finding the mansion/hospital covered in blood and gore. The sweet nurse who tried to befriend Mary is found wandering the secret passageways with a missing boy and ends up shot by an overzealous cop, who went on to become famous for "solving" the case of the easter massacre. Mary goes on to live peacefully in New York again, with her army of lady ghosts doling out justice as they see fit.


I listened to the audiobook and it had a thoughtful note from the author before the book, and at the end, which made me appreciate the story all the more. The author is clear that he was deeply and profoundly inspired by his mother and the book Carrie, and has been working on a book like this for most of his life. I absolutely loved it, and strongly recommend listening to/reading the author's context as well.

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hauntedantiqueshop's review

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dark mysterious medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.25

I was on the waitlist for this book with my library FOR SIX MONTHS!!!! I was psyched to finally read it. I thought it had an interesting premise and liked where everything was going, up to one point at the end. The whole Nancy twist really threw me, I’m still a little confused on that if I’m honest. But it’s a Good For Her™️ book nonetheless! I also really liked and appreciated the author’s note and afterword. Will definitely read more from this author!

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vixenreader's review

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challenging dark emotional funny reflective sad tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.75

Akin to the works of Ottessa Moshfesh, this is an intimate, scary study of a disturbed character going through ordeals that are both relatable and horrifying. 

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parasolcrafter's review

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dark emotional mysterious sad tense slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? No
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

0.25

i dont think ive ever read a book where i have so VISCERALLY hated an entire cast of characters this much ohhhhhh my GOD. genuinely the only likeable characters are nancy and eleanor,  and eleanor turns out horrible in the end (not unexpected at all, just sad) and nancy ends up dying and being the scapegoat for everything, even though she is the only genuiely Good Person (see what i did there, haha ← chanelled the author of the book for that, do u see how annoying it is) in the WHOLE cast of characters. like...im sorry, but what the fuck? like i am genuinely asking: what the fuck. this book just REEKS of being written by someone who has no idea what on earth theyre writing about. and beyind that, the story is so wholly unsurprising, unshocking, un-fucking anything enjoyable. its a spectacle. it really is. its so truly incredible how badly everything came together.

none of the twists feel earned since they were all so easily guessable (like noooo way, mary is the serial killer reincarnated??? oh say it isnt so...surely nobody guessed that at all) and because of that, fell entirely flat. like never once was i caught off guard by a piece of info or shocked or felt as if anything we learned put anything into place snce everything felt obvious from the beginning. like we KNOW there's something wrong with mary from the beginning. we know she killed her neighbours dog. we know that. its obvious. like...i dont even know what else to say about that. it was all just SO badly implemented.

also like it truly is a little mind-blowing how this book still managed to drive home the old 'the serial killer is just a crazy psycho on the loose' despite the fact that i dont think that was meant to be the case...? thats an entirely horrible trope in and of itself and the fact that this book has it in it, just a somewhat misdrect from the entirely obvious plot point, is BAFFLING to me. like it adds nothing the story. nothing. and like..are we supposed to care about mary? are we supposed to sympathize with her? feel pity for her? i hate her. i wish she died out in that fucking desert. i wish the furies would have clawed her eyes out and skinned her the way the members of the flock do to their sacrifices. thats what she deserves. she is a horrible woman, through and through, with no redeeming qualities. i dont believe for even a SECOND that she was ever acting not of her own volition and that its all blamed on 'being the reincarnation of damon cross', aside from the few times he Actually took her over. but before that? before she knew? no; that was all mary.

the only few good parts about this is, at least, that the book is at least self-aware. i appreciated that there was a little bit of satire against true crime culture and it did seem to have (some) insight into what women g through during their lives and how they change during menopause, but those parts were few and far between.

the book also just isnt scary; except, maybe, scary how bad it is.

and to answer the question in the authors afterword which is, directly; 'Was this a story I should have pursued? Or should I have let it scratch in vain inside the haunted trunk of ideas that sits inside every writer's brain?' yes; you absolutely should have locked it away and never looked at this idea again, for fucks sake.

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blacksphinx's review

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dark emotional inspiring medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.5

I did enjoy this book, but it's a stew of various elements I'm not sure all come together in the end. I don't regret my time with it, but it goes off in a direction I wasn't expecting (both in a good and bad way) and I'm not sure how likely I am to recommend it to others or reread it. I would hold it up as a shockingly good example of feminist horror written by a man though, and I will definitely be reading Nat Cassidy's next book, Nestlings, when it comes out.

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scytheria's review against another edition

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dark emotional inspiring mysterious tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0


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crispr_breadboard's review

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challenging dark emotional mysterious reflective sad tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.75

This book was incredible. Gory, lots of triggers, but the careful lens of looking at a peri-menopause woman deeply embedded in the toxic patriarchy WHILE STILL being a book about religion, sexism, ageism, and horror? Phew. It was a great book. 

Another impressive note— the author wrote with notable care and sensitivity about menopause- he has also written an afterword discussing the very real and complex topic of whether a man should even be *allowed* to write about the topic with such core themes around womanhood, menopause, and self identity. He did a fantastic job, which he acknowledges is also thanks to his editor and her team of sensitivity readers. Great work. 

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owlribbon's review

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2.5


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sleeson's review against another edition

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To descriptively gory and massive amount of swearing. 

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